A lot of this one was dictated into my phone while hiking and edited and pieced together the best I could after the fact…
The world needs wild humans. Those who don’t get their direction from the common source. No, I don’t know this song on the radio, I haven't seen that show. I have seen the world from the highest points. The places you can only walk to. I need to get out there. Climb like beasts through forest and rock. I do know what Seneca said, where Thoreau spent his winters, who McCarthy’s judge really is. We have to stay capable, stay harder to kill, harder to manipulate. Independent in thought and action. I feel the pull. To move, to be free to create, free from judgement. Everyone wants to take that from you. They want you to fall in line. Sometimes you have to get away. Even if it’s only temporary, the wilderness helps. The trail puts things into perspective.
I've found that the only people that I like or strangers that I don’t mind seeing are on the trail when I’m on the way down. Maybe it’s the endorphin high from just completing a hike, from just being on a mountain seeing the world from the top. Maybe it’s empathy. You know the struggle that they are going through that you already went through to get to the peak. Maybe it’s kinship seeing someone that made the same choice as you. They chose to do something difficult. They chose to try something hard instead of laying around and taking a day off. Telling themselves they earned it because they were at work all week. I don’t know. Just being out here makes everything a little bit better. I don’t hate the world so much. You have to try to remember these moments. They fade like all the others.
It’s killing me right now. That my family can’t be vagabonds. Laundry and dishes and yard work. The price we have to pay to get the short time away. I guess that’s unrealistic. Would we regret it? Giving up the security and safety for a more adventurous life. I have to go alone sometimes. Sometimes by choice but also because of mundane life responsibilities. I want them with me. My son especially. The lesson it could teach him. Earning that reward. How much better the view is when you’ve earned it. Pictures do it no justice. It's not even close. In due time I guess but that time is not guaranteed. Nothing is guaranteed. If you can do it now, do it now. Time to go. In the woods solo.